…and I kept a brief journal of my trip. I know. You’re such lucky readers.
6/27/14 – Wyoming, Day 1
I tried communing with nature, but it was muddy so I gave up.
My cousin, on the other hand, tried to drive across a stream and his truck is now stuck.
So most of the men-folk and several women are working on that mess, while I sit here and avoid venturing forth into the mud.
Did I mention I hate mud?
It’s evening now. The kids are outside running around and a small group of adults is playing Carcassone. I’m not playing because I hate strategy games even more than I hate mud.
Still, I feel a little bit left out.
There are a lot of people here. I love them all, but the sheer proximity—it’s a lot to deal with for someone who really enjoys solitude.
The decor here is Western American rustic. Or something. Basically, there are a lot of dead animals staring at me and it’s creeping me out.
6/28/14 – Wyoming, Day 2
Today I went shooting and I drove an ATV. I feel so bad-ass.
I just sand in the family talent show. I feel less bad-ass now, but still pretty awesome.
6/29/14 – Wyoming, Day 3
We went to church at a local congregation this morning. The talks were on faith, which is personally relevant to me right now.
Last week my therapist brought up Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego, and we talked for a bit about faith. About how faith is more than believing in something—it’s knowing that if your hopes, your dreams, everything that if good in your life comes crashing down around you, you’ll still believe.
Faith, as one of the speakers said today, is more than just a feeling. It’s a choice.
So today I choose to have faith. I choose to believe my life will not always revolve around my depression. I choose to have faith that one day I’ll look up and realize my life is so much more than I ever expected it to become.
I choose. I believe.
6/30/14 – Wyoming, Day 4
Headed home today. We’ve had a great time here, but I’m still kind of glad we’re done.
So there you have it. I know, pretty exciting stuff. I bet you can hardly wait until my next post!